I feel I lost everything
Living my life for nothing

I have nothing attached to, specially my spirituality
And to gain it again, I really don’t have the ability

I feel that God will never forgive me
This is not what he wanted me to be

I had kind of humanity
I lost it out of stupidity

At the same time, my best therapist just had a vacation
While I was living 2 weeks of depression

From the day I said bye
I was never high

How can I when I am not feeling her inside?
When she goes for a vacation, I feel as if she left me a side

Logically, I understand she needs it
But emotionally I can not accept it even a bit

I feel so lonely without her
I really miss her

She is everything I have
With her I feel so brave

To stay alive
And happily to survive

1 week past as 2 month
Where I cannot open my mouth

And say I am sad
Which made me live a hard time in my bed

Not being able to sleep
Calling you so deep


For 18 hours a day
Until I believed the last time was the last goodbye

Now, I am crying deeply
Waiting for tomorrow fearfully

But whatever happens I want to thank you
And say one last thing:” till the last breath in my life I love you”

DOUDZ

Behind the door we meet
Away from people's looks
Behind the door grows a love
Strong and quite unique

Locked away it remains
For years with no end
Stuffed quite undercover
Where no one can see it

The closet is dark and dry
Yet humid and cold too
There's light sneaking in
From its smallest hole

The reflection we see
Of lovers walking past us
Painfully strikes home
Bulletproofing our hearts

It's too crowded in here
Baby I'm stepping out
Take my hand and you know
We can face this world

TRU

rain! on the land of beauty
rain! wash the anger of my heart
rain! clear the feelings to me
rain! so the sun can shine even more
rain! there is nothing beautiful than the sky's eyes
I am crying like the sky, pouring my pain away
because the sun will shine tomorrow
and see the beauty of the pain fading away
I am smiling right now
I am smiling to tomorrow, because it is a better day
I am smiling to tomorrow, because I'll see her beautiful face
I am smiling to tomorrow, because I'll hear the word i wanna hear
I am thankful to the rain, because its washing my pain away.

JO.D

She walked into my life
Like a queen would only do
And so this time around
The fairy tale came true

In the midst of it all
She looked right in my eyes
So the world disappeared
The second she took me miles

It took long rainy days
And endless nights of pain
For the perfect rainbow
To sneak in after the rain

TRU

I had a dream
it seemed beautiful ..
it was lighting like a candle
giving hope all over the place..
giving warm feelings to me
day after day.
day after day..
and this candle started to lose the charm
started to lose the light
hope, love, faith
they all started to fade away..
it started to get dark..
you know what i mean
the hope is gone..
the faith is is gone
only love was hanging in there..
and i knew ..
it will go away..with no looking back
with cruelness it will go
with knives straight in the heart
and it will let it bleed and bleed

i know i will have scares that will keep reminding me!!

so i took a deep breathe..and a deep look
realizing that the candle is suffering since there is no air to keep it shine
and in no time
i turn it off..i let it die..
i was sad and i am still
my heart is sore with no tears..

this is my dream..
i let it die..
and it hurt
it is so painful
that i feel
so fucking high.

JO.D

Life starts tonight
Under the moonlight
On our back we lie
Our hearts to the sky

Stars above our bed
Circulating in my head
A meteor passes fast
A spell it does cast

The clouds make way
An order they obey
And the sun shines on

So so life has begun
This time with a spark
Between us in the dark

A word or two i speak
The night's at its peek

Love you whisper gently
As us intertwined we be

Our future's just a night away

The night's just a minute away

Tru

I never really knew that you were everything in my life..
I never really knew that you made me feel secure and happy
I never really knew that you being in heaven means me being in hell.
But I will take this time out, and I will change my life forever.
and I will jump out of my hole that I put myself in.
and no..I don't feel guilty for me being who I am.
I will never feel guilty cuz I couldn't say sorry before you go.
Because I know that you forgave my immaturity with your big heart.

JO.D

if i try and tell you i'll make it better for you
if i promise you i won't hold you back
if i do everything i can to set you free while you're with me
if i cuddle and snuggle and take care of you
if i play with your hair and drown in you eyesif i tell you how gorgeous you are
if i honestly tell you i want you in my life
if i nurse and cradle youif i kiss you gently to sleep
if i tuck you in my arms so warmif i hold you so tight and protect you
if i promise to be there for you whenever...
if i promise i'll love you
if i promise i'll hold you
if i promise to give you anything i can give you without asking you to stay or waiting for anything in return...
if i promise i'll set you free whenever you can't stay anymore...
if i promise i'll love you just as long as i can stay...
will that be enough?!

kim

I am very happy
I am no longer moody

I said goodbye to my depression
And I welcomed my happiness

After 22 years of depression
Not even knowing the newest fashion

Sitting in my bedroom crying
Waiting for the moment I’ll be dying

Enough, I don’t want to remember these miserable memories
From now on, I want to be at ease

Fulfilling my life with joy
And to the maximum my life to enjoy

With my awesome friends
Holding each others hands

Supporting each others
As brothers and sisters

No matter what the situation is
We should overcome these crises

By love & passion
Taking our decision

DOUDZ

I use my key to enter
Then close the door behind me
I run upstairs to my room
To enjoy some privacy

I change my clothes
And leave the stashed pile
Before all of that mess
Is a glimpse of a smile

I put on a black hoodie
Off to the streets i march
With protesting friends
Until we reach the arch

We cross every bridge
Then climb up the mountain
We stand tall at its top
At the prime of the season

The change we demand
Starts in every one of us
Leaving the past behind
As we unite for a cause

TRU

I adore each smile in you
And all what you do

I adore the way you look at me
And your way you say things to me

I adore your power
To stop my suffer

I adore the moment we sit together
Being mad of the time we will no longer last together

I adore your power to change me
Proving me how much you care about me

I adore that you go into my mind
When I was blind

I adore that I no longer fear you
Vise versa trying to be closer is all what I do

I adore that inside you I found safety
And the moment I felt you inside me

I adore you for ever
What so ever

DOUDZ

I wanted to tell her. It's the deepest pit you could ever get into.
But- It's full of sparkling little bits that you may never wanna get out.

It touches your weakest and softest spots.
But- You do live strong, together.


It's not a test. Or a challenge. Or a personal training course.
It's like Life, you don't know what it is, but you know what it's not.


& You naturally love it & protect it & help it grow.
Without questioning its source, essence, or destination.


It becomes your mini-God to worship & thank every moment of your life.

& You breathe it, pray for it, and survive it simply because it IS. & It will always be.


But I didn't tell her. They either know it already, deep inside, or they never will.

I can still see her eyes, when I close mine
I can still hear her voice, and it makes me smile.
I can still feel her heart beat, its music to my ear
I can still remember that laugh, it’s all I hear.
Do you still remember our first kiss?
We were young and drunk
Your lips, oh how much I miss
We were scattered on the bed
The deepest core you hit
Oh God! I can’t take it of my head.
I can still remember that night
My body was your pleasure
Your heart is my treasure
And my feelings to you, something I can never measure

JO.D