I never really knew

I never really knew that you were everything in my life..
I never really knew that you made me feel secure and happy
I never really knew that you being in heaven means me being in hell.
But I will take this time out, and I will change my life forever.
and I will jump out of my hole that I put myself in.
and no..I don't feel guilty for me being who I am.
I will never feel guilty cuz I couldn't say sorry before you go.
Because I know that you forgave my immaturity with your big heart.

JO.D