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Remember when we were kids? We only saw as far as our own backyard! We thought that life consisted of getting your parents’ affection and getting our daily allowances to buy as much candy as our little tummies would fit! Can you remember when we would just want to finish our homework in time to play hide and seek before our bedtime? we thought this was it! We thought that life was playing house with your cousin, us being the house keeper, them being the doctors? We brought up our kids, made diner for our cousin/husband after their day at work…




Shhhh, no one tell my husband© 2007 by Lauren



But then we grew up, we understood what it meant, this whole mind game trick. We were unconsciously outraged and wanted revenge! So we started to build-up ourselves! We wanted more from life, we deserved more, and we would get it… But life got harder, we were no longer playing house with our cousin/doctor, we were living it with our lover/girlfriend and life just got a little bit more complicated! We both were strong, willing, overwhelmed and feminine and yet fierce; loving and yet logical; passionately in love and yet practical…

But life doesn’t give you breaks and chances just because you need them, it challenges you and tries so hard to bring you down… Why? Maybe just to build you up, empower you, make you proud of yourself because of the things you have overcome? Or maybe just ‘because’? Searching for the reasons doesn’t really help, searching for the whys is quite useless because at the end of the day, life doesn’t really give a crap about you. It just goes on, running and running, you just have to keep up otherwise you would be left behind with your own regrets and what-ifs…


Some people chose to just stop and enjoy the moment and find themselves blissfully happy in their own existence, in their own world. Some people refuse to wait it out! They will fight until they’re drained out of their last breath! They probably don’t know why and will never find that out but they learned that it doesn’t matter why the journey started. What makes all the difference is the destination, the wheres. Others realized that neither this nor that matters, what counts to them is the journey since they’ve lost the past and are uncertain of the future they tend to chose to enjoy the present. What matters to them is the hows.

Whether it was this or that, we are all, part of the same community, walking side by side trying to find that person who will walk right beside us and hold our hand throughout this whole ordeal. Some of the luckiest do find that special someone and appreciate her to the utmost while they have her. Others do find that special someone but are too scared to hold on to her just in case she leaves them with a broken heart. To those people I feel sorry, they will never know how great it feels to be blissfully happy and unaware.

To some of the most unfortunate, they will never find that person who completes them, and they will either keep on searching still hoping, or they will simply accept that fact and find out another truth about life which is to simply love yourself and enjoy life with everything it brings along…

In all the cases, we are never really happy or really sad because life will not cause you utmost misery or utmost bliss, this feeling comes from within. It’s a personal choice that if you chose your own path, your own heaven or hell…

I didn’t make that choice yet, I’m still waiting to see as much of the facts that my mind and heart can see and accept. Until then I chose to play house with my beloved and be blissfully happy that I got to taste that feeling and live it…

I guess that makes me lucky…